Meditation… So easy…
Don’t think about any… Ah, wait!… Calm your mind…
Mmm… Calm… Stop! Once again!
Nothing… Nothing… I’m still talking… It’s so hard. It’s so hard! Damn it! Good to see you here back. Today I prepared for you my daily meditation review. I’ve been meditating… today is like… Let me check it. 14 days. Two full weeks of daily meditation. My history of meditation is… a bit complicated. I started to practice few months ago but it was like the… really difficult moment when I wanted to start from half hour of meditation… I tried some guided meditations, but in the past I was in a really bad mental conditions. I had serious health issues then so the meditation was nothing that I wanted to really do in my life. So meditation was for me something like a must have step for my self development journey. But in reality I was like: “Rrrr… Meditation… Half hour… Oh my god, please no…!” To tell the truth, in the past I was not doing meditation daily and I was not really convinced to meditate. So in the end, I had no benefits of it and I was thinking like: “Oh my god, what people see in meditation? What the…” (laugh) It changed. I started meditation daily as a habit. Every day I was meditating and… it was not forced this time. And I need to tell you that I started from 10 minutes per day and now I’m meditating – after two weeks – sometimes 3-4 times per day. And I’m so surprised by what it gives me every day! Two weeks review but I’m planning to make another one. In another two weeks it’s gonna be like after 30 days what changed, how it affected my life in a positive way. Half year, one year of meditating. I started meditation as a way to improve my concentration,
improve emotional control. And after reading the book about meditation it totally changed – the way how I look at meditation. It made me look at this from the perspective of connecting with God, with Love, with Universe. To feel like Unity with the Universe. I started to meditate… trying to meditate this way because I’m still a super amateur. I’m just like a baby, a baby looking for answers. Everything is so new for me and I’m excited by learning new things. Why we start to meditate at all? Like… I think… who try meditation, there are people who
are interested in self development, who are not satisfied with what
the World already offers us. All this crazy race for having more,
consuming more and more, and more… Like… you are like attacked by new impulses
from everywhere. So it’s so difficult for us to imagine
sitting even 10 minutes without doing anything. Without even thinking. We think that if we gonna stop thinking,
we gonna be stupid, what gonna happen to us. We don’t wanna feel stupid,
but what I discovered, the truth is that if we do nothing, we do so much more. And we discover a totally new Universe
inside us. You see that you don’t need so
many things from outside. With meditation I see that
I don’t need to run anywhere. To get more and more, and more.
Like… I really don’t need to run anywhere. It’s not even about getting something
like goals, it’s more about enjoying the process: how I walk?
And being conscious that I’m walking at this moment and… that I enjoy the feel on my skin,
the love in my heart now. The most important change in my life
after two weeks daily meditation is definitely such a big progress with
controlling my emotions. It’s crazy for me because
– trust me – I’m a really emotional human being and
I have a big empathy, I absorb emotions of other people.
I have still a problem with separating what is mine, what is somebody’s else
with feelings. I was really… I was really driven
by emotions and I started – thanks to meditation – to observe
how my head works, how my mind works. I started to see emotions, my thoughts
from a side. From behind. I found an amazing comparison
meditation to a big sea. And the bottom of the sea is like…
it’s so calm… It’s full of calmness… and silence.
But there are waves on it. But if the bottom is calm,
the waves are not gonna affect the bottom. The silence, the calmness.
Those waves are like fears, our anxiety, so if we are calm so deeply,
those kinds of stuff are not gonna affect us. We’re not gonna be driven by fears,
by anxiety, by anger. We look at this from a side…
We are more like an observer. And this is how I feel, you know,
after two weeks what is super shocking for me because – trust me –
I’m a super emotional human being. (laugh) And… I’m really happy of it.
I’m like really super happy. Thanks to meditation, my anxiety attacks
almost disappeared. Almost! They still come to me sometimes,
but they are so much less powerful. You know, they are so delicate,
and at this moment I stop myself It’s like I imagine standing side to side
and I observe how this anxiety attack looks like. So these anxiety attacks were really difficult for me.
I was going with this water, with the waves you know. I was totally like “the waves taking me”:
the fears, anger. But also these positive emotions really much like: too much
excitement, too much joy. Now – when it comes to me – I observe.
I don’t identify myself with those thoughts, with those emotions. I don’t tell them
that they don’t exist. I take them. I take them as they are but I don’t let
them control me. I’m over it. I’m the calm sea, the bottom of the sea.
Calm bottom of the sea. I’m not going with the waves anymore like that. And I see how sometimes stupid and
totally random my thoughts are. And I’m like: “Okay… So they are really
important like that?…” The big change is also the thing
that I enjoy silence! I used to have a big problem with
boredom. I was all the time in a hurry. You know I was here, fast, faster, faster,
new impulses from everywhere. I think it’s a lot because of the social media.
For example, you know, I take Facebook, I scroll down. I take Instagram, I scroll
down. Every time I see new things from every side. I feel like attacked
by new impulses. And everything… Every time I need new, new, new things.
Because of it, it was difficult for me to keep my concentration. All these impulses
used to make me bored really easily, like really easily. I had a problem with
my concentration but now I feel seriously like this – deep sea.
Better concentration definitely. And you know, concentration… not only helps
you to be more productive with things you need to do but also it helps you a lot with
controlling these waves when they come. With the fears, anger.
You realize that you need less. That you don’t need to add anything to experience.
You can experience already what is inside you. And this is like a whole universe and…
It’s difficult to describe it exactly. I’m still learning what kind of words to use here
but I really love this calmness in me. And I’m really interested how it’s gonna look
in next two weeks, in next 30 days, in few months, in one year, in next years. You know, with meditation
as I see maybe there’s no such big fireworks with changes. The changes are slow, the process of changes.
I’m presenting it now for you while being a bit excited by that but this is also to
make you try meditation because I would love more people to try and more people to
take benefits from meditation. To make you try, to make you want to try,
to give you this desire to try. I’m totally an amateur about meditation, okay?
But I would love to give you few tips that I learnt during these last two weeks of
daily meditation. I don’t have big knowledge, I’m learning
by watching videos about meditating, by reading books but maybe with my experience
I can give you some answers to make it easier for you in the first steps, like the beginner, total beginner steps.
For one question there can be many answers and maybe my answer gonna work for you, maybe not.
Always ask your heart and look for answers in your heart. So the first tip is that I prefer meditation in the morning
and it’s worth to make it as a habit. Try to make it a habit in the morning. As I see
when I meditate in the morning, it affects all my day. I feel so much calmer during all day,
so much better. For meditating I use an application created by Sam Harris. It’s called “Waking Up”. You can find it for Android and for iOS. I will put the
link in the description of the video so you can use it.
Practice, practice! I have many problems with random thoughts,
but in the beginning even 3-4 minutes. Look at the meditation as the skill to learn.
And it takes time. Don’t be scared if you cannot concentrate in the beginning.
I see by my example that with every day I can be concentrated more and more
and I can meditate longer and I enjoy it more. The beginning was like crazy… WHOA! (laugh) But if the thoughts come to you, allow them,
observe them, observe how your thoughts look like, how your emotions look like.
Oh, and if I meditate with my breathing, I like to use earplugs and then I feel so much
more my breath and I really like. So this is a small tip. I’m meditating more and more every day as I see.
Sometimes even my dog tries to help me what is really funny because I meditate and my dog is like:
“Woof woof, Daniela! Woof woof! I wanna too! Play with me! This is my toy. Play with me!”
So yeah… it’s important to have also a place with calm. Quiet place in the beginning for sure.
Not with dogs next to you. So this is my first two weeks daily meditation
review. I’m really interested if you meditate, have you ever tried meditating, do you meditate,
how you see it, what changed in you. Please, tell me in comments below. I would love to
have conversations with you. I would love to have here people, open-minded people who share
experiences, they are so kind to each other. To everybody to feel good here.
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Pieces of kisses for you!